Career Fair

The career fair hit me like a ton of bricks. I had my whole day and life planned and then when I entered those doors and saw all those companies - some of them interviewing students who were already dressed up in suits - I got confused.

I say confused because I felt unprepared. I thought I knew where my life was going before then. But soon I realized that the world is bigger and has much more possibilities. I wasn't sure if I was prepared.

I saw some companies there that wanted engineers. I have always loved electronics so I wanted to talk to some of the guys there, but since my background was not engineering they did not want to talk to me other than "check with us online for other services". I already planned on having an engineering degree about 10 years after my first BS.

I got information on other companies that I was interested in: Organizational, and Outdoor Recreation. I'm most interested in applying to be an Events Manager for "The Leadership Center, Inc." The Outdoor Recreation jobs weren't that great, and if that's what I really wanted I could always go back to Anasazi. I love their philosophy the most.

Overall, I learned that I need to have a more specific plan. So I made one. I have 2 classes after this semester to graduate with 2 degrees: Comm and Rec Leadership. So, May 2007 is when I need an internship or job. I have a top three list, in no particular order:
1. ILP - Teach English in Taiwan or China.
2. Work at Anasazi, try to affiliate with the Arbinger Institute through them.
3. Apply for the Events Manager position with The Leadership Center.

I may have to transfer to Provo to graduate though, I have too many credits here.

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p.s. Google is really cool: i'm using Google calendar, and Google homepage. i recommend trying it.

First Snow

Rexburg received it's first snow this Fall today.


It fell very silently through the night and I never even knew it was there until I left my house this morning to walk to school.

Funny thing is, I'm exited! Because even though the streets will now be too cold to longboard, now the grassy hills will soon be covered with slick sticky snow to sled down! And when the winter gets really bad, I will probably head south.

Well, I think we'll have at least one more warm spell before the snow stays. I plan on longboarding for the last time on that day.

Pondering Life

as i sit here i've wanted to write these things down so i would remember them. and i will do that here:

i've gone through some phases: growing up wanting to live in the wilderness (forced to forget that dream from society) and then returning and almost touching that lifestyle while working at Anasazi (realizing it can be true) and spending many days in the desert with others who actually lived life the way i wanted. i learned a lot from them and i can say that i'm 80-90% sure i could make it if i were to leave today on my own. but, having a desire for education i am here in school instead - required to live in an apartment and follow some rules. at first i felt forced back into it b/c i didn't want to return to a busy life of school. that's okay, i'm open to any experience, knowing that none lasts forever and it can only allow me greater perspective on life. however, it's hard to live a life you don't exactly want. i've pondered this a lot and received some insight: it's not wise to seclude oneself into the wilderness with no other human contact. i decided not to be a lone traveler.

so what do i want in life? it seems like ever since i started asking that question years ago i've never stopped. i'm starting to realize that knowing what you want in life changes as normally as life itself does. so the greatest thing i can want is to know what direction my life is going in.

true, i've been depressed in the past, like most people get when they don't know what they want. in those situations you just have to make a choice; even if you have no reason for it, because if you don't make a choice then you're choosing nothing and that's the worse thing you can do to yourself. plus it will prolong depression.

so make a choice. write it down and acknowledge that good and bad will come of it. i have to choose my lifestyle after i graduate. there will always be another choice after that.

i just started a personal progress plan today. the idea is not new to me. i've done this a couple times in the past. odd that i had to be reminded of it again though. if there was ever a time when i needed a personal plan that time is now. when i'm not tied to school anymore i will be free to go in any direction. how thankful i am to have that... any direction i want. i thank God for that.

i'm realizing that my childhood curiosity of electronics has not truly diminished as i had thought. i went to the career fair the other day on campus and whenever i passed by the companies that made semi-conductors (computer stuff) or did stuff like that i gaped at the jobs they were offering and then realized i couldn't get them b/c i don't have a degree in electronics but in communications. note: i did not say i regret having a comm major. i figured i might one day want to become involved in electronics again but not like this. i left the fair with a bit of confusion.

I'm drawing from many sources. i'm pondering the present and the future.

sorting out some of my thoughts... wanna see what i've decided so far? this, in chronological order...

1. must finish school. i will have a BS in Recreation Leadership and Communications.
2. internship jan-apr. i have three options and i will go with the best one that accepts me.
3. officially graduate (yep, i need one English class which i will do in Mexico after my internship, if they let me)
4. pay off loans. teach english in the orient (15K/year) or return to Anasazi. or go back to the internship.
5. if i can work for an electronics company as a "communications person" then i bet i can still get a piece of the technology action and perhaps fulfill both dreams at the same time. maybe they'll pay for my graduate school as an electrical engineer.
6. research and invent. i have many ideas and i want to implement them. i want to invent better paradigms for waste management, better travel options for people, and many other things. in essence this is inspired by the Gospel (13th Article of Faith).
*. among all this i can envision a family. shy to admit it, don't know why, but sometimes i desire that wonderful family atmosphere i see so much here at school. other times i'm bitter towards it.

the list will always go on. there's never an end to life's plan...

Ghostland Observatory

I just got back from an awesome concert... in Rexburg? Yep, right here. Just two guys... one Native American and one white dude with a cape on. Put a synth and a guitar in their hands and you have a great combo. Kinda like the White Stripes, but with a lot more synth action. When they started I was in the back with Mary and Kyle and we were dancin' but by the end I was up on stage dancing with a bunch of other people during their songs! John and Sven were there and right now we're eating frozen custard out of a quart container that Mary and I got for free when the icecream store messed up our order. Go Mary!

See it here:
Ghostland Observatory in Concert.
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Anybody missing a coat?

My mom said she found a coat in our closet upstairs. Apparently, her coat is missing and this mysterious one was left behind. Somebody probably grabbed the wrong coat. I don't have a pic, but here is what my mom said,
"Did you leave, or one of your freinds leave, a winter, black wool thick overcoat that has nice brown leather buttons here?"
So if that sounds like a coat you're missing, let me know.

Sand Storm

http://www.sunbelt-software.com/stu/iraq/sandstorm.htm

Don't believe everything you see

For those of you who aren't familiar with Adobe's Photoshop, it's a professional image editing program. While I only know basic uses, I found a web site of a guy who obviously takes it to a new level. He's a professional touch-up artist who currently works for Apple, Inc.

Anyways, this isn't a plug for his services as much as it is evidence that what we see in the media truly isn't real life. Just take a look at his portfolio. It's hard to see the changes he has made until you see the original picture, and shocking at how some consumers accept "front cover models" as a standard of what they should look like!
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More images

I am too busy to update my blog. Here are more pictures...

Elder Bednar

"Being offended is not a situation that happens to us; It is a choice we make of how to act."

Just another loco

i haven't posted in a while. and i have not much to say right now, so here's some pictures from the good 'ol times...

Jo, Angela, and Sterling painting with me Summer 2004

Me at the MTC

Cool Baby

Me playing at Guitars Unplugged 2004

Mary in a child's Kangaroo costume

Little Superstar

This is like the Jackson Five, only they look Indian and I think they speak Mandrin Chinese in the end. Napoleon Dynamite, beat this.

A dream

today i was having a dream that i was getting ready to go to my friends house. i had to get showered, dressed, brush my teeth, use the bathroom and put on chap stick before i could go. well, i was finally ready and as we were walking down the street to get to her house we saw this guy next to the sidewalk sitting on his porch using a laptop. he had a beard and was dressed kinda like a hippy. we stopped to check out his computer, said hi, then when we turned to keep walking sudenly everything around me began to fade away - the trees, the bearded guy, the house, and road. next thing i know i can't see anything but blackness. i then feel myself breathe and recognize that i'm laying down... am i awake? so i open my eyes to discover that i'm laying in my bed and i AM wide awake - it's exactly 6 am. i try to go back to sleep cuz i want to know why i was going to my friend's house, but i couldn't form the dream in my mind again. i hadn't planned on waking up for another 55 minutes, so i just decided to use the extra time to get some homework done. it was a good idea; i'll probably wake up early again tomorrow.

well i haven't been able to post with my cell phone more than once. apparently this feature is buggy and blogger still needs to work out some kinks. i've researched around the help groups and many people have had this problem.

i just added like 8 new photo ablums to my web albums. it was easy - only took 15 minutes. now i'm pretty much done. if i add anymore it will be my old stuff, like from 2004. You can find a link to my web albums above the blog links.

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